Sunday, October 7, 2012

Re: 30 Letters - "Words, Wide Night"

*sweeps cobwebs*

Hey y'all.

How's it going? I know I know.
I'm alive an well and I will come here for as long as I still can.
Okay! I promised I would do the letter challenge so here I am. Slight problemos...just teeny-tiny snags:

1. I ain't starting from Day 1 (I cheat once in a while :D)
2. I'll cheat a little more than little...yes.


I must warn you, it's just a few words from a scatterbrain. That said, here we go:

DAY 19 — Letter to someone that pesters your mind—good or bad


Hey ya,

I would never dream of saying this to you...ever! I love our palship, dearest buddy of mine and I don't wanna ruin it. Everything I wanna say to you, imma keep in my heart because I'd rather have your friendship.

See, I was reading some poetry tonight an one of them poems struck a nerve. It almost said all I want to say to you...all I probably will never say (Never saying never. Who knows?)

It's a poem by Carol Ann Duffy...and here goes:


Words, Wide Night by Carol Ann Duffy

Somewhere on the other side of this wide night
and the distance between us, I am thinking of you.
The room is turning slowly away from the moon.

This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say
it is sad? In one of the tenses I singing

an impossible song of desire that you cannot hear.

La lala la. See? I close my eyes and imagine the dark hills I would have to cross
to reach you. For I am in love with you

and this is what it is like or what it is like in words...


Yessir massa. Indeed I am. I really truly can't take my mind off you...funny huh?

I told myself it was never going to happen...Not with someone like you...I'm strong...I'm ready for whatever...sigh...I wasn't ready for this, trust me. It was sprung upon me.

"This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say it is sad?" 

 It is actually sad. Why??? Because, my dear, this tiny little piece of information will die hither. In this letter. This letter that you probably may never see...

So! Since I can't accept what you're wont to offer, I have to ask you to get out of my dreams :(  Oh yes...Since you aren't aware, I shall help in that regard.



Yours truly,
.X.




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Some bum magnet stuff.
This is probably a mistake. lol. Anyhoos, I'm posting it. Sigh. I don't know if I can continue fa...heavy sigh...this took so much. Wistful sigh...If I will, the Next letter will be: Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

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xx

 

2 comments:

Toinlicious said...

#Sigh

Afronuts said...


hmmm...I'm kinda lost in between this collage of emotionally composed lines...

I can sense a sadness...does this have to do with someone you broke up with or its just fictional?