Goodnight 28...Good morning 29 :)

So it’s about 2 hours before my 29^th year on mother earth begins.

Do I feel older?

Uhmm

Neeeh.

Wiser?

I feel like Methuselah yo. I learnt things I didn't think were possible. I soared heights I didn't know existed. I hit depths I didn't think possible and I’m really thankful to God for it was a good year…On a scale of 1-10, "WE" ROCKED A 7!

A lot happened with me this year…This year, I had an “spiritual awakening”. Some kinda mini break :D down. No I never felt like committing me-cide. I came quite close to wringing some necks…none mine.

For those who saw it and were there for me (…some of which don’t know this here joint exists though lol), I want to say thank you.

For those who didn’t understand and thought I was just being an asshole, I wanna say, I understand. We’re still family :)

 

In the last few weeks, I’ve had all kinds of emotions coursing through my body.

High. Low. Low. High again and posting countdowns on twitter lol

Pre-Birthday jitters. lol

I feel great! Happy. Proud. Thankful :) 

I’m ready to walk through that door and actually “Live” my life for once. I’m willing to shed my “workaholic” badge and see what life could be like outside of work.

I’ve realized, albeit in my old age (lol) that… I don’t remember what I realized. sigh. Dem plenty.

Lol

Okay I remember: I've finally accepted the fact that I can not help everyone and that I need to start helping meself. I need to start thinking of me. I’m going to be less stressed this year. I fully intend to relax more. 

Swim

Play Tennis

Write

Sew

Whatever makes me gay…Imma do it with reckless abandon and I mean it this time. I really do.

I wanna say thank you to those who still read this blog, despite all. It surprises me to comments still.

I have no excuse. Things should get better. Promise.

Right.

I’m off to my pre-birthday parteyyyyy *WOOP WOOP* 

Lemme just say this before I go:

 

Dear 28,

You were a sport and *In Sarah McLachlan’s voice*  “I will remember you….” but it’s unto the next.

Love,

Me.

This is to my last year as a twenty-something-year-old :D 

**Clink**

**winks**

Off to boogey down!

Peace!


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xx


Please blame GEJ for any errors. It's almost my birthday joo. Cut a girl some slack :p

To Mom and Dad!

 Music: Semi Colon - Slim fit Maggie

   On this day 30 years ago, a certain Gem said "I do!" to a certain E.E.

On this day in history, they had a big wedding.

The dress still hangs in Gem's closet...Tulle and Satin mix yellowed with age...Sterling silver tiara's still good as new...

The marriage...The marriage has received it's own fair share of blows...It has hit a few air-pockets and has come into it's own.

Gem and E.E.? Still crazy about each other...

Today it's their 30th Wedding Anniversary.

30!!



I'd have loved to send them to somewhere exotic...somewhere they could just RELAX and forget their 5 chilluns who can actually take care of themselves (We never grow up with our parents....sigh)

In time...In time...



Anyways, for now, I'm raising my glass...

  

...to the bestest parents EVER...Mazeltov!!

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XX

P.S.

Yeah they had me exactly 10 days short of a year later :D 

P.P.S.

....and yeah...I'm sipping wine at work. Bite...and apple :D 

Post-Post-Post Note: 

This post was written yesterday...for some strange and sadly, incomprehensible reason, I didn't post it. Thanks for reading :) 

Touching base...

Eyes smarting.
Bones tired.
Spirit vexed by a certain obnoxious humanoid.
Feeling the beginnings of what might be a fever :(
Trying hard to keep my eyes open long enough to say for this moan-fest...a quick hello...

...and a goodbye.


Warm regards,



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XX



Let's "talk" soon :)

Randomery...I think :|

Darling Ladies and Gentlemen who still come this way and actually read my...stuff...sigh, how are y'all this lovely December morn?

I present to y'all my lame attempt at writing something here...I ask your forgiveness in advance if it isn't worth your 2 minutes. I must warn however: There's more where this is coming from :|


So here:

No Title (Forgiveness)

How can I be
when all you are is what you are?
Inert.

How can I exist
when all that I am is all that was slayed?
Dead.

How can I feel
when all that I am is all that was purged?
Numb.

How can I muse
when all that I am is all that is isolated?
Alone.

How can I forsee
When all that I am is all that was screened?
Jaded.

How can I heed
When all that I am is all that was misread?
Muddled.

How can I breed
When all that I am is all that was flawed?
Twisted.

How can I be hallowed
when all I am is less than I should be and all
that I should be may have been lost

to time and space and impulse.
Done with.

-
Herself



Y'all have an awesome week!
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XX


In other news, it's my birthday in 25 days :D :D